i've been feeling totally overwhelmed with things lately. i'm hoping now that the 4th and john's birthday (the 5th) are over, everything will calm down. because i've been much too busy.
normally, i love love love a relaxed life. and i like time with just me, so i'm not one of those people who constantly has to have plans for the weekend. like my living space, i like minimalism as it applies to the rest of my life. yes, it's very easy to make yourself busy, but it's just as easy to make yourself un-busy. the things on your plate are the things you put there - at some point, you agreed to them. so i know the fact that i feel busy is no one's fault but my own.
i'm just not sure what i'm busy doing! do you ever have those weeks? akin to a hamster on a wheel. doing a lot, but not sure why or where it's going. i go to work and then do a bunch of things and then i'm exhausted and go to bed. but those 'bunch of things' are a mystery to me. perhaps it's the fact that i don't care for summer so i'm more crabby and therefore more tired and prone to feeling overwhelmed. or perhaps it's a mix of tasks taking longer than expected coupled with summer being the time when more random last minute activities pop up. and probably saying 'yes' to them a lot more because 'nope, it's -20 degrees outside, i'm going home' is no longer an excuse.
i need to start saying no more.